Unbearable Pain: A Personal Struggle Against the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a overcast Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sudden sensation bloomed behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid stabs, similar to electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the pain subsided and then came back with greater intensity. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches returned frequently that autumn, and once more in spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: aura in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-blown agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically start with severe pain behind a single eye that persists for three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the condition, and males are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically begin with abrupt, severe pain focused on one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. I have an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal cycles; others have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of long pain-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. Another discovered 64% of cluster patients reported suicidal thoughts during attacks; the number dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, like many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated behavior. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize daily activities around erratic pain took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an evil spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient medical records propose unusual remedies for what some observers would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by global headache committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key artery which delivers blood to the head. Prominent experts in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In 1998, researchers published the results of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, published in a major medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, identification remains slow. One man's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple operations before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a physician researched his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other common head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced the condition for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a calm volunteer talked them through oxygen treatment and drugs until the episode eased.

Official guidelines on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the attacks of well-known people.

But leading neurologists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Brief bouts with occasional episodes are managed with acute therapy only. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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Edward Hall
Edward Hall

A film critic and entertainment journalist with over a decade of experience covering Hollywood and indie cinema.